conundrum82 (conundrum82) wrote,

  • Mood:
  • Music:

Jornal Entry 17.1 - On Regrets Pond...

I've spent my whole life trying to never look back and regret anything. All these years in the belief that no matter what has happened I would not be the person that I am today if it were not for each and every one of those events. But with certain events in the past few weeks I've been wondering if it wouldn't have been best for some of those events to have never taken place, maybe I wouldn't be the person I am right now. As of late I think that would be a good thing. I've become a very volatile person. My mood changes without warning. In recent years I have been able to control one problem of mine, and that is taking what ever anyone says to me or about me personaly. Now, by control the problem, I mean limited the range of it. Now it's only when people I care about say things to me that it effects me. Now, when you mix that problem with a newly volatile persona, you get a very bad mix. I wasn't always like this. In fact it wasn't till this last year, aka the year of hell, that I became like this.

Ultimately, I've come to the conclusion that I regret quite a bit of what has happened to me in the past 12 months. This is no way to live. It's time to make some changes. Unfortunately change is not always popular, nor is it always easy, but in this case it is necessary. So, here goes nothing.
  • Post a new comment


    default userpic
    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.